struggling

14We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.

gift of life*

So here's a beautiful note i found in my inbox this morning..

On your birthday, it's no longer about me though, it's about you! And Sue, there's no doubt that all of us see many grand things for you but more importantly, I just want to affirm your faith as you take these steps outover and over again without asking for a reward from God – your faithfulnesswill have its way of showing in a way that only you will comprehend in thefuture. So what I pray for you is abundant faith continually put intopractice as you keep moving ahead because I know that you are meant toachieve great things.I also want to encourage you not to feel disheartened no matter what may come your way because there is a greater plan and purpose for your life. Sometimes its merely rhetoric but most of the time it is more than that – itis faith into action – proclaiming the words out to remind ourselves not to be caught up in our fleshly desires. Your selfless life is a testament to all that you walk a road of faith and you have been very good at notconfirming to the norm for the sake of the flesh. You have put yourself outthere and gone against the grain in so many ways simply because you believeso and are convicted and God sees that Sue. As for a boy, which we always talk about somehow, I pray that he bringswisdom and light into your already bright life – that he may partneralongside you and bring you fresh revelations and a new point of view thatyou have never seen. And may the two of you partner alongside God to dogreat things in this lifetime. I am convinced God has marked a life sospectacular for you that I am just waiting to see what more he can do foryou!I hope and pray that you will continue to be just who you are because youare a miracle not just in my life but so many others – my journey with God would not have been complete or as fulfilled as with you! =) I want to say so many things to you Sue, but words fail me (I KNOW RIGHT? UNBELIEVABLETHAT WORDS FAIL ME) but they do! They are all random thoughts in my head andwords can only convey so much! But I hope you feel that you are special andreally just an awesome person and if there is anything in Melbourne I cansay has been a true blessing that would be you and your family! Love you very much and I am holding so much hope together with you..

Freedom

I search for You God of strength
I bow to You in my brokenness
And no other King could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart
I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that’s of worth to me
And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You’re all that I need
I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You my cares released
I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that’s of worth to me
And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You’re all that I need
In Your freedom I will live
In Your freedom I will live
I offer devotion

Sue-Lee is ..

.. sick of doing church